Good news, It's been a big week

Last night was an emotional one. I went to my therapist and we talked about many things I have been, well obviously, suppressing. I came home pretty emotional and after talking with Kev and my sister for a couple hours I was crying and full of anxiety. This week has been a lot for me to handle and the week coming will be too, I don't know sometimes how to do it all. Just when I was getting into bed I got an email from PENN medicine. My heart didn't sink, I just clicked right on it, and there it was. "Jo, your scans look good. Looking forward to talking with you more Tuesday" Signed Dr. Schutchter. It could have said, "Jo, I am right here. With you always and will never give you what you can't handle, looking forward to tomorrow, and the next day, and the next, and the next." Signed your good and faithful God. Another fingerprint. Right when I was feeling down and overwhelmed he  sent a message of hope. I could have waited to open that email, I most nights wouldn't be checking my email at midnight, but I did. And he met me, right in the middle of hard, to send the best news ever. I don't know all the details of the scan, and today don't need to.  I still see her next Tuesday to talk and have my 3 month check up. So until then, I know there is good news, and that's all I need to know. One day at a time.

I have said a couple times I am not sure why all my scans, baptism, biopsies, and the first day of school all fell upon the same week. It's been a lot for me the past few days. I feel very much still not myself, or the crazy mom I was 2 years ago when I did school and fall schedules the last time I remember. For the past year I had full time help and support and now we are entering into a busy season where I am not sure what my capacity even is.

My scan on Tuesday went fine, it is torture those things. I totally felt drugged and the good thing was I slept through the whole scan and a good portion of the day after. It's just a part of my life that I am not used to doing, but will get more used to as they continue to be frequent for me. This is a pic of the injection of the radioactive contrast sugar they send through my body.

I went to Hershey today to meet with my Melanoma specialist. I love her. She's just another awesome part of my care team and I am thankful for her. She checked me over very thoroughly, took pictures, used her dermascope to investigate a few things, but decided for today not to do any punches. yay! We have one that we are watching but for now it's ok. I can't just punch our every mole on my body and I way have more than the average so we just watch and remain vigilant, and I will see her in 6 months because she's going on maternity leave :)

Thank you all for your prayers, again you have carried us through. I am humble enough to ask and accept them because we still need them as we do all this. For now, for today, I am thankful. I can breathe a little, love more, and be thankful for more time to do his will. We celebrate this for sure, it's a huge victory, in a long and hard year. 

"You split the sea
So I could walk right through it
All my fears were drowned in perfect love
You rescued me
So I could stand and sing
I am child of God..."

Bethel Music

"The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases;  

his mercies never come to an end; 

they are new every morning;

 great is your faithfulness."

 Lam. 3:22