Shot 2 and the complicated life with cancer

It's been a crazy last 48 hours post injection number 2....
I took the shot at about 9pm Tuesday so I could take all my meds and hopefully sleep through the initial pain. This plan worked well and I slept near 20 hours straight, waking up at 3:45 on Wednesday. Kev gave me meds throughout the night and mom during the day to make sure I wouldn't experience too much of the horrible side effects.

(My shot team. One to administer one for prayers and moral support)

 I finally woke up wednesday afternoon and spent a couple hours with the kids. I went back to bed about 7 or so and was sleeping on and off until anout 10. Then I had a snack and watched a show then felt the nausea take over and told Kev I was going to throw up and at that point passed out for a couple minutes. Once I woke up I threw up and meanwhile Kev called my doc who told us to get to the hospital right away. We hurried to the ER and were given fluids and anti nausea meds rights way. I continued throwing up on and off throughout the night at the hospital until about 4 am. The ER doctors didn't even know what to do with me because of the sylatron which is super awesome ha. We are all tired today, Kev and Charley came with me and stayed with me at the hospital all night. Mom is tired too from being up here at home waiting for us and waking up early to help the kids. It's been an overwhelmingly tiring, scary, and disappointing last 48 hours. I wasn't sure it would be this hard again but it was definitely tough. My head still feels heavy and I feel nauseated and tired. My doc says next week we will go down in the dose or hold a dose and see if I can feel a little relief. I will not be able to take this same dose again Tuesday which is discouraging but I honestly felt like I was dying last night and everyone including me was very scared. This whole new cancer thing is so hard. If you have walked this path through chemo or interferon drugs I have compassion for you my dear fellow warriors. You are SO strong to be able to go through any amount of these scary drugs that kill us yet help our bodies fight. Continue to pray for me now, for my body to still be strong enough to fight.  I'm really down, weary, and tired. My caregivers are too and they need prayer for stamina to get me through. I'm trying to stay hydrated but it's very difficult when I'm sleeping so much and my mouth is starting to get dry. (another side effect) Pray I can stay out of the hospital and off the IV.

(Here's some pics from our hospital adventures no 1.)

I saw my melanoma specialist dermatologist today at the Hershey Cancer Clinic. It was quite the event for me to get out of bed. Especially since the last few times I have it hasn't been pretty. Everything looked ok on my skin and she will monitor me really closely checking me every 3 months and removing everything that needs to be removed. Today I felt so terrible that I could hardly talk and wasn't motivated to ask more questions. I will see her frequently though as another specialist in my treatment team and I'm thankful for her. 

Not sure what else to update here besides to thank you each for still praying. I'm weary and my body is weak. I trust that through this hard God will still be glorified through my suffering and that his strong arms are wrapped around me even when I don't feel it. I don't feel alone and know I'm not. I'm very much looking forward to the day this is all over whether that being done with interferon and cancer free or with my savior in heaven pain free, I long for those days now that they are so real. 

Tuesday I wil go to upenn and see my doctors there. I will get blood work done and we will decide what to do about my medicine. Between now and Tusday it's my goal to keep taking anti nausea meds and to try to eat and drink as much as I can. I need to do this or I'll end back up in the hospital which isn't the worst but not fun. There are too many other risks with going to the ER for me. Even though I was sent right back with a mask on the hospital is a germ fest and that's the last thing my body can handle, it's too busy fighting already. It's amazing really what the cancer card does, trust me though it's nice but nothing glamorous. 

Thanks for praying dear warriors. Again I'm asking in desperation because I feel your prayers when I'm struggling. 

"And on those days when my reality doesn’t look or feel like “good” to me, I ask God to help me see how He’s keeping the promise found in this key verse: “that in all things [He} works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose” (Roman 8:28).
What I’ve discovered is this: God is always working things together for good, but not just for our good. Sometimes we are part of His working things together for someone else’s good."
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